MissTrixta

So many years have passed since I saw you last…
I hardly remembered those deep and lonely eyes…
Like a shadow you disappeared when the night crept in..
When darkness engulfed me.
Long forgotten the memories became, but
When the sun rose
Scared was I to unlock what my heart locked so long ago.
Broken I felt, as i was lost in what is…
Too busy to face what was…
Not knowing what to do
when the morning light revealed you.
I closed my eyes hoping that you’d once again
disappear…
But through the my eyelids the image of the
Remembrance of pain associated with you is etched.
A burning reminder that I can’t escape…
So I must face you….
I’m not sure what it’s going to be…. But I must dig to know…
I’m not sure with this, where it’ll go… But I must follow…
Deep breathe… Step…. No…
Don’t fear… Just let my wall go…

Every night in the mirror I see, a ghost of who I used to be.

Filled with love and laughter that died long ago.

A reflection of bitterness, loneliness, and pain now appear before me.

Most days I float on by, running below the radar

With a fake smile on my face,

While deep inside wishing for rain

So that masked tears may fall.

Every night in the mirror I see, a ghost of who I used to be.

Filled with love and laughter that died long ago.

A reflection of bitterness, loneliness, and pain now appear before me.

Most days I escape through time.

Filling each minute, each hour with distractions,

While deep inside wishing for the darkness

That will mask the pain I wish to release.

Every night in the mirror I see, a ghost of who I used to be.

Filled with love and laughter that died long ago.

A reflection of bitterness, loneliness, and pain now appear before me.

Most days, I walk this winding road… looking to which direction I should go.

Getting more lost with each turn.

While deep inside wishing behind something I can hide…

So that the world cannot see

That every night in the mirror I see a ghost of who I used to be…

Filled with love and laughter that died long ago.

A reflection of bitterness, loneliness, and pain now appear before me.

A ghost forever lost in a sea of misery,

Waiting for a lighthouse to guide me to be once again…

Free.

I’m sitting here listening to the music of my past and I reminisce about the past. I am realizing all of the things I took for granted in the past. Friends, family, faith. If it were not for these I would not be where I am today. So to the past… this is for you.

Step by step we walk through life

treading upon the words and desires of 

of time that has long passed.

Some never looking back on the 

foot prints we leave behind.

Step with step we grow and transcend from

what we once were to what we are to become

forgetting the foot prints that have led and will lead

us to those we are to become.

As the sands of time trickle down, and the final

grains fall… we will come to realize

that the foot prints we left behind

were never washed up by the waves of the future…

but rather fossilized and buried deep with in

who we are to be.

those foot prints long forgotten are

forever imprinted in our future.

and with that step by step into the future we go…

hand in hand with the foot prints of our past.

forever walking one in one.